The World hates the Truth. But I'll give it to you anyway.

“The truth is hard. The truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth. But do they really?
The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can’t help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much.”

Grey’s Anatomy

I think now’s the time for us to feel encouraged.

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

You’re such a pig

I AM SUCH A PIG. I will stop being one tmr. No procrastination. Really. Tmr 10am i will awake to the morning sun and start GYM-INGGGG!!!! Well tt is after i hit the snooze button 8475984764876743 times and brush my teeth, drink water and eat something. So i’ll prolly only start in the afternoon. Good enough (:

OKAY so it’s time for the annual flashback into the year that has just flown by. Strangely i absolutely cldn’t feel the transition into 2010. Maybe it’s cos my house has been in such a mess and has only just been cleaned up cos of my kitchen renovations, so for the first time i had no christmas decor (smth i am usually busy with at the end of every year). Sad. But it’s okay cos now my house has a brand new kitchen which is awesomeeeee. Or maybe it’s cos i don’t hafta get up at 6am tmr cos while everyone is stressing about their first day back at schooool.. and i get to sleep innnn! So it feels like my holidays are being extended and the year hasn’t started yet. Kinda sad that i’ve come to relate the new year to new school books and new teachers. If this was back in primary school i’d be crying now cos i don’t wanna go back to school. If this was back in secondary school i’d be having nightmares about my coming O level results. But this is NOW and i hate the fact tt my nightmares about getting A B U U U or B C A B B F9 (???!) for A’s have been feeling so REAL. I actually wake up feeling depressed instead of relieved that it was JUST a dream. I rmbr one where i dreamt ms tng was mocking me for failing econs ): There’s really so much more for us to explore in this big big world apart from school school school and more school. Ok results aside, it’s a new year and i’m so glad 2009 is behind me although i’ve started to really miss school. It’s time for me to stop thinking “I’ll stop procrastinating tmr” cos it’s not helpinnnggg. I need to embark on my tennis lessons, german language course and part-time job before it’s too late!

Anyway i think i’ve been reflecting a lot throughout this -wait- LAST year cos i kinda don’t have anything to say about this new year. Everything seems to be flashing before me like a dream, the guys going to army and the girls trying to find work to get some pocket money.  I’m still in bummer-mode but i’ll get out of it SOON. haha there goes my procrastination again. This will definitely be a crazy year. A year of change and new things. But i’m really looking forward to it. I need change. I’m so tired of the monotony and repetition of mainstream education. I seem to have reached a stage where i no longer want to be in my comfort zone. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. All i know is that throughout this period of change i hope to maintain the friendships that meant so much to me over these past two yrs. It’s something i couldn’t bear to change <3

I need to stop saying that i’ll do stuff next year cos next year is NOW. OMG. I also need to stop having nightmares about results cos it’s making me more depressed by the day. Can hardly believe it’s 2010. Gheez.

I’m trying to decide if i like change or not.

If i like change.. i should never get married.

If i don’t like change.. i may regret the decisions i make to lead me to my future job.

So i’ve decided that i like varitions in my life but i need something or someone(s) to remain familiar and act as my security blanket when the changes seem too overwhelming. Yea.. that’s it (:

This movie could easily put Shakespeare to shame. Mr Shakespeare THIS is what i call tragedy although it ended with a semi-happy ending knowing that not all hope was lost; even though there never was any ending found to appease a mother’s loss. This is what hollywood should be about NOT brainless, ridiculously unrealistic, eyeroll and vomit inducing jokes they call movies like New Moon and Hottie and the Nottie. Makes me question if corruption can exist even in the movie world. You may say i’m exaggerating but if you actually took the time to watch this, you’d know exactly what i’m talking about. I couldn’t even cry because the absurdity that took place in society eight decades ago just overwhelmed the sadness of a mother losing an innocent child without a single trace to guide her back to him or to even know if he’s still out there. Knowing this was a true story of an average working class woman (single and alone) and the ordeal that “justice” put her through amidst her undying resilience to find the truth  just made it all the more heart wrenching. 

Everything that could possibly go wrong goes wrong when the highest rank of law and order is run by a bunch of liars and heartless animals. Othello’s Iago looks like a petty twelve-year old next to these crooks. At least it was because they had a reputation to upkeep so as to keep their country in order or else havoc would break loose since nobody can trust the very people who were entrusted to keep chaos at bay. But still it did not justify what they did. Trying my hardest not to give anything away here because i really hope people watch this. It’s an academy award winner for a reason man. It’s like could people be THAT stupid? Really?? It made me realise that everything EVERYTHING is run by the government. Social schemes that are closest to something being provided for the sake of humanity can be infiltrated by corruption. We complain about inequality? ha. There’s nothing like feeling so alone because even the one place you thought you’d find help in is infiltrated by evilness as well. Why? Because a larger force governs this place. This place is run by blind followers of a law they see as just and right because that’s what the Big Guy said it is. This is where thinking for yourself comes in. Just because you are told this is the right way to go doesn’t mean it is. It doesn’t mean they’re honest.

PS. I love Angelina Jolie

I have decided to make money to fund my readily diminishing savings account by selling ipod covers! hahaha. I’m sorry my friends who own these dear animal companions but i fear they will no longer be the only ones in existence for long. Take comfort in knowing yours is THE original and was made with extra love and care (:

(I doubt anyone will see these here tho..)

In chronological order:

The FROG

The FISH

The BAT (happy b’day damien!)

All are original creations (copy and i’ll kill you) except the frog.

ORDER AND BUY PLEEEEASEEE.

The detail. The wood. The size. The.. damn it’s amazing.

Wah but if the fireplace burns over.. they’re in trouble.

WARNING: DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE IN THE MIDST OF EXAMS AND IS FEELING BITTER ABOUT YOUR LIFE BECAUSE I AM ABOUT TO GLOAT. BIG TIME.

TWO YEARS HAVE ENDED IN AN EXAM THAT CULMINATES TWELVE YEARS OF MY SURVIVAL IN THE BLOODY SINGAPORE EDUCATION SYSTEM. There’s more to come BUT i’m happy for now. VERY happy. The reality set in ten minutes ago and i just bounced and pounced around my room going YAAYYYYY I’M FREEEEEEEEE. Then i stopped. Then i burst into my victory dance (reminiscent of the Ugly Truth) and then i cooled down and walked outta my room to use the computer.

FOR ONCE i can use the computer without feeling guilty about having to research something.

FOR ONCE i can watch tv without the thought of that pile of work that has yet to be completed lurking somewhere at back of my mind.

FOR ONCE i can SLEEP without the anticipation of the buzz from my alarm clock jerking me awake to another dreary day.

FOR ONCE i can go out and not give a damn about the time because i am now 18 and i am perfectly capable of taking care of myself.

FOR ONCE I CAN ENJOY A HOMEWORK-LESS HOLIDAAAAYYYYYY. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

SUCH joy. Sorry to all the peeps who end in december.

And yes we shld all sleep… just as how victoria has shown us how to.